The Choosing
He was cute, of course. And smart. A combination that has become an oxymoron for its sheer rarity. And he was the one who initiated the contact which sent my ego fluttering in demented ecstasy (When I hit puberty I was fat and pimply. That fat and pimply kid is still there despite the weight and acne loss. So. . . we not only take self-validation whenever we can. We wallow in it in the most obscene manner imaginable).
He looks family though but I thought maybe that’s just because we are in the same city and that whole small world thingamajig. Also, certain details about his person points towards a certain person who I was sumkindova interested in the past but, um, didn’t pursue because, um, I wasn’t ready yet. heeeee.
God! I reread my sentences and realized my writing is shit.
Anyhooha, we were supposed to meet earlier but that didn’t fall through. Work thing meeting blergh. I had a back-up plan which I cancelled because, well, I want my TehPershDett to be with him and not some second-rate loser who I don’t even like.
So we rescheduled.
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I can’t write this entry–partly due to sentiment and partly due to my inability to articulate.
Suffice it to say that I like him and he seems to share the same feeling. The kicker is we have different goals for whatever this thing will or will not turn out to be.
That is all. Bow.
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Don’t you fucking call him after sending two quasi-desperate attention-seeking messages!!!
Just don’t, okay?
Ugh!!! I hate myself!
hun!!!! I am so happpy for you! If you both like each other, what’s to hold back??
Oh wait, that’s my agressive and slutty side talking. hahahaha!!
I think this one hit you where it matters coz I havent heard you whine and introspect so much! hahahaha
well, the thing is, the guy’s already taken.
and as he so bluntly said, “Why? Are you expecting a relationship out of this?” means that the most I can hope for is a congenial fuck.
sigh.
Oh crap. why are all my queen girlfriends seeing guys who are taken??
hahaha! well if a congenial fuck is all he expects out of it, then fuck it is! at least you get that benefit out of something forbidden. hahaha –B.I. ako, sorry. ^_^
what is this i hear about you having a boyfriend and not telling me??
you had to tell Jane first? harrrrumph
So.. I’m still WAITING on the “blow by blow” account you promised me. HAHAHAH!!
Yeah! Where is the “blow by blow” account? I’m dying to hear it.
Btw, kimmy nad I have been wondering whether you’ve spent the last few days on a wheelchair. Hahahaha!
mga mahadera. hahaha. i don’t take it in the ass. puh-leeeeze.
ano na? where’s the update? so you didn’t take it in the ass….where did you take it? sheesh!! details, honey…DETAILS!!
EARTH TO THE GLORY THAT IS LN!!
Where is this friggin account???
spill or be wasted, biatch! LOL
we broke up na.
yeah.
you know that part where i was complaining that i don’t have a life and shit. well, my life is on fast forward now. so that’s too much life crammed in so little time.
lovely.
hun.. im sorry. seriously? I want to know what happened..
Are you okay? (well duh, of course youre not)
***hhuuuggssss***
uh-oh! was that the onset of claustrophobia setting in? =’(
we didn’t even get our blow by blow account!